June 2007


Yay, Paris is out of jail and back on track, im ready for more paris news. Hehe. I heard she’s has approved a biopic movie about her, see, prison does not stop Paris from being popular. She endup being richer! go paris!

Meanwhile thanks to the the weather hiatus in KL, as usual, i end up having rhinitis reaction. Gawd!! when will this weather can stop being moody, and have a steady hot or rain season for god sake? well i blame the global warming. I dont deserve this, im an enviromental friendly person ya know! well i guess i have to rely on my alergic pills for the time being. but who likes to have a stuffed itchy nose? and also zits popping up from your face here n there? hwaaa!

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Well, just like paris, wolly now has also being allow to get out of his prison whenever im home. ) he’s smart actually, he know where to pee and poo. but im in the mid of teaching what things he can and cant chew. I love playing with him, when hes in play mood, he would jump around, roam around the house, circle around me nibbling my clothes. Hes my first pet that i own by myself and im proud that i can take care of pet. Im thinking of getting another jersey wolly to befriend my wolly, When i have extra money that is. )


Mariam Sahari, with her Korean son (right) Ji Yong Un, 51, his wife, Shin Sook Hyun and their son, Ji, 29. — Picture courtesy of Korean Broadcasting System.KOTA TINGGI: Jailani Sunni was six years old when his mother was abducted by the Japanese army in 1943.
He never saw her again, leading him to believe that after all these years she was dead.
Now 70, Jailani has learnt that his mother, Mariam, is alive and desperate to see her children, and he just cannot wait for the day when he can hug and kiss her.
Mariam Sahari, whose birth name is Mariam Johari, has been stranded in Korea for the past 61 years.
She did not have the proper travel documents and was considered stateless, but all that may be about to change.
When she was abducted, she was put into a concentration camp. She was one of those forced to build the military airstrip in Senai.
Mariam was then married with three children. Her husband, Sunni Abdul Rahman, who married her when he was 12, also went missing during the war, and only returned home in 1950.
Before then, Mariam met Korean Cho Se Won, fell in love with him and, in 1946, followed him back to Korea to seek his parent’s blessings to their marriage.
She left with the expectation of returning to Malaya soon, and promised her youngest child, Jamnah, then 5, “lots of cookies”.
However, it was three years before she could marry Cho and a series of unfortunate events, including the Korean War in 1950, left her stranded in Hampyong.
After the war, Cho took another wife and Mariam was forced to work as a maid in Seoul, for a household with three children where the wife was stricken with cancer.
The children grew close to Mariam, and when her employer’s wife died, Mariam became his common law wife. He died in 1992.
All the while, Mariam had been yearning for her children and family in Malaysia, with whom she had lost all contact.
The Korean Broadcasting System (KBS) took an interest in her story and came to Malaysia to trace her family.
On Saturday, her three children were contacted after a reader gave the New Straits Times the telephone number of Mariam’s grandson, Jamil Onn, whose mother is Mariam’s eldest child, Ramlah, 72.
Jailani, a kuih seller in Kota Tinggi, now hopes the government will help to bring his 86-year-old mother home.
“For years, we thought we were orphans and prayed for our parents to come home. Our father died in 1972.
“Alhamdullillah (Thank God), now we know our mother is alive and well in Seoul. We pray for her safe return.”
On Sunday night, Jailani, his sisters, and other family members got their first glimpse of Mariam in Seoul in a visual clip provided by KBS.
It showed Mariam celebrating her 86th birthday. She had a simple message of love for her children.
In her 1950s Malay lingo, she said: “My dear Ramlah, my dear Jailani, my dear Jamnah, it has been a long time since we last met but I have always missed you. I love you.
Her message brought tears to those watching.
At 8pm (9pm in Seoul), KBS arranged for a telephone conversation between Mariam and her children, with a Malaysian student in Seoul, Syira, acting as interpreter.
In a choked voice, Mariam apologised to her children.
Jailani replied: “…nanti, Jailani nak peluk dan cium mak. Kami rindu sangat dengan mak. (When we meet, I want to hug and kiss you. We all miss you very much.)”Article from NST.

I found this article so touching end up myself in tears. Mariam life story is so full of ups and down, and if it turn to a movie, it will be a very interesting movie to watch. I hope nenek mariam selamat pulang ke Malaysia and dapat jumpa anak2nya.

after done much thinkin, i think i would like to learn how to sew. u heard me, yeap. “jahit baju”. my mum know how to sew baju kurung. but she seldom sew now. not anymore, i think now when we have more money she prefer to send it to tailor. I think shes lucky to know how to sew, common how many of us know have that skill? when i was a kid, i use to play with her sewing machine and mind you, i watch her sew and manage to sew simple stuff for example to stiched a tear on my clothes, pants etc. i think im gonna try to learn it properly this time.for starters, im gonna start with baju kurung and baju melayu. then proceed to curtains, and pillows..im gonna make my own first. till i really2 master the skills and then i can start to do it for my friends. maybe first as a gift? isnt interesting?

the question now is, how do i start? and when will i start this thing?

Freedom, although what you giving me, just a lil taste of it, is a relief. At least im getting what i always had before when im happily on my own.Freedom to be alone, freedom to do what i wanna do alone, freedom to be silly on my own, freedom to do things on my own.

and slowly………….sedar atau tidak,rindu padanya berputik semula dan baru ku tahu ku masih sayang padanya bermula dgn hanya kamu memberiku kebebasan untuk ku bersendirian.

Thank you for understanding me..

This is the best candy ive ever tasted.personally, to me it taste better than cadbury, vochelle or even my fav kinder bueno bar. However its not available in Malaysia(i think?). Cuz ive been looking around for it everytime i go to the malls. but couldnt find it. (

If u happen to read this and happen to be in malaysia and happen to know where it at. Gimme a holla k!

*DRoolls!

In KL, everyday now, is a rainy day.Its raining yesterday, and also a day before yesterday, Same goes the weather clouds in my heart lately. Conditionally parading some emotional confusion which my smart logical mind cant bear. Well you know usually, 1 +2 = 3. but in my case, i cant rationalise why am i cant even find a solution for a simple emotional calculus as simple as 1 2 3. Sad…Sad..Sad… why am i becoming so emotionally complicated?. im not like that.Back then, whenever my friends are in position like i am today, i would just cant understand why they cant make a simple decision.patch it up or break it up.simple as that. now here i am. in their shoe’s. Trying to wake up from a nightmare which few months ago was something i always dreamed off.Last night, we got in teary eyed situation again. and i again, sulk in my own confusion madness.
promises again were made. and i again, giving us a time frame and hope things will +ve change for us both. We’ll see.

by Jessica SimpsonIt’s not that I don’t wanna share my life with you baby
It’s just that I’m the one I need to be true to baby
And I won’t give up me to be part of you
It’s not that I don’t wanna have you in my life baby
It’s just you gotta know that it’s got to be right baby
Before I open up my heart to you

I don’t need somebody to complete me
I complete myself
Nobody’s got to belong to somebody else

I belong to me
I don’t belong to you
My heart is my possession
I’ll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I’m one not half of two
And if you’re gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

I gotta let you know before I let you in, baby
That who I am is not about who I am with, baby
That don’t mean I don’t wanna be here with you
I do

I don’t need somebody to complete me
I want you to know
I’ll give up my love but I’m not giving up my soul

I belong to me
I don’t belong to you
My heart is my possession
I’ll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I’m one not half of two
And if you’re gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

Love don’t mean changing who you are to be
Who somebody wants you to be
Nobody’s got to belong to nobody

I belong to me
I don’t belong to you
My heart is my possession
I’ll be my own reflection

I belong to me
I don’t belong to you
My heart is my possession
I’ll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I’m one not half of two
And if you gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

“aku umpama burung, punya sayap, ingin terbang bebas..”

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Dear wolly,
we meant to know each other,
cuz theres no much difference you and me,
i love you, i feed you, and your happy with me loving you,
someone love me, someone care for me, and im suppose to be happy with someone who love and care for me.

im like you wolly, im caged.
crying inside, trying to fly away, trying to break free

do you feel the same way like i do wolly?
but i let your cage’s door open for you, you choose not to break free, you stay in.

unlike me, who never given a chance to break free.
but unlike you, i own the key for my freedom, but like you, i choose to stay in, not to break free.
we are prisoner wolly…prisoner of love.


we cant make anyone love us and we cant stop anyone from loving us. True loves comes from the heart which will go beyond the borders of geography, status, group, race, age, and sometimes gender. Choose to be with someone who loves us, not with someone who we wish to love us. me VS High heels. hopefully, will open the eyes of love searching blind puppies out there )

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I took his cage out to the living hall since friday, wishing him to adapt to much bigger space. and whenever im home i will let his cage door’s ajar. So at least he wont feel caged. But so far he has not come out from the cage yet. Still lepaking inside his cage, altho his cage door are wide open. i made some readings on the net about this fella and found out that we can actually teach him to litter at one place just like cats, so im taking my chances and see if wolly can actually behave himself and only litter in his cage if i let him roam free in the house. we’ll see…i dont want to caged him. coz hes such a cute little timid fella.. ^_^

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